Friday, December 30, 2011

I so desperatly wanted to be part of the solution Not part of the problem!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

the lovely thing about life is that you can always be better than you were yesterday. It's a constant climb twords who you want to be. It's lovely that although you are so far from who you wish you were the world presents itself to you ,inviting you to become what you will. so although today I was far from the girl I so desperatly want to be, Tomorrow I will JUST that much closer.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011



I'm going to be posting a picture of a nativity from around the world each day. this one is from jamacia I got it for my mom for christmas this year.

The future belongs to those who belive in the beauty of their dreams

It's funny how a dream can change
It's sad to let go of dreams that were once yours but not any more
It's strange how sometimes a dream will never change
It's confusing how what you thouht was your dream, is not so much for you
It's wonderful to be able to chase your dreams with all your heart
It's fantastic to have people who believe in your dreams
It's mandentory that you have a dream
It's the best thing in the world to have your dreams come true
It's even better to work hard and then accomplish it yourself
It's inspireing to see people who have gone out and lived their dreams
It's heartbreaking to see people who have not
It's character building to have to WORK for your dreams
It's lifechanging to live for them

Monday, November 7, 2011

Good letter of the day v
Bad letter of the day R

GOOD word of the day
Bad word of the day

Good number of the day 21
Bad number of the day 14

ok so i just LIKE some words and numbers and letters and HATE other ones, so I wanted to keep track.. don't even ask me why? but yep

Sunday, November 6, 2011

oh heart

I lay alone,
listening to my heart
it shake my whole being
pulses through all of me
shaking me with each throb
It pounds out a song
one I can't ignore
But one I can't understand

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Gluten free pumpkin chocolate chip cookies

So this is the first recipe i'm posting, but I always make something and forget or lose the recipe so I wanted to post them so I will remember, None of my followers are gluten free but they would also work with normal flour...

1.c brown sugar
1.c pumpkin puree
1/2.c oil
1 egg
1. Tbls. gluten free vanilla
1. tsp. milk
2.c gluten free flour?( I used bob red mill oat flour)
1. tsp. baking soda
2. tsp baking powder
2.tsp. cinnamon
1/2 tsp. nutmeg

combine pumpkin,sugar,egg,vanilla,milk and oil. In a separate bowl combine dry ingredients. Stir together gently. Softly stir in chocolate chips. Drop by tbls. onto greased baking sheet. Bake at 350 degrees for around 10 minutes, or until golden brown

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Things that I want ( list poetry)

1. I want an old book and a new camera
2. A day by the sea side
3. A real kiss
4. those who have left me, to come back
5. I want my best friend
6. my long hair back
7. I want butterflies to flutter in my stomach
8. A large piece of french bread smothered in honey
9. somebodies hand to hold, when I'm lonely
10.And no questions left empty

Sunday, October 9, 2011

I don't know what i want anymore, and that scares me more than anything.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

so i'm totally wanting to write a song
the only problem is I'm completely entirely and utterly a failure at music!
so i guess what i really want to write is lyrics, but without the music it just feels limp. arrrg :(

Sunday, September 18, 2011


so it's almost my birthday...
7 days to be exact.
It's kind of sad turning 19 i feel old and forced to be grown up.
But since graduating and making my own choices I've started to realize just how good it is to be young. I still have so much ahead of me, why am I feeling like I'm half way int the grave? I'm not fifty! sometimes I like to make lists about things I want to do, like the 12 things I want to do in 12th grade. But I'm learning that life isn't always what you think it should be. Sometimes it's worse and a lot of times it's much better. If EVERYTHING I had on my lists had happened I would be wishing it had. I can't control some things and that's ok. But I'm at a point in my life that I can't afford not to be actively becoming who I want to be. SOOO... I am going to make some goals that I can control. I don't think I will post up all my goals just because I don't want to, but I will put them on my wall! 19 here I come!!!

diamonds from the sky

Friday, August 26, 2011

swinging is the best thing in the world and I truly believe that it brings you closer to heaven. The cutest part is this looks like my bff i always go swinging with miss erin ann.

Saturday, August 6, 2011


It was the kind of land that made you question your sanity. made you see things far off, strange men in suits waiting for you to walk into their trap. It was the mass of the land that told you nobody would hear your screams. Each step was a hundred or nothing. A thousand years here would feel the same as a day. because When all you can see is sticks and nothingness for miles and miles and forever, It doesn’t matter how many thousands of steps you take. But with every step, every time my bare feet hit against the lifeless land I couldn’t help but feel sorry not for me but for this useless part of the world. It held so much potential all wasted on this barren forsaken stretch of forever.

Monday, August 1, 2011

the world of rain

I woke up early to the organized frenzy of quickly falling rain. The clouds were sounding out a heart beat audible on the pavement. I love rain, it shows us a gimps of another world. One more open and vulnerable. A world of passion and poetry just hidden under ours. I walk the world barefoot, my long hair down curling with the wet drops. I feel free under the crying sky, free to be sad or happy or free to just be.

Saturday, July 23, 2011


so both Kelly and jade introduced me to CHARLIE! he is now my youtube boyfriend... or at least i wish!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

what do you have to lose?

Today i wash asked the question what do you have to lose?
It's been on my mind for a while now and the more I think about it the more I love it.
What really do I have to lose? I feel like right now more than ever the answer to that is nothing. Yeah i mean there are always going to be a few things but honestly if there is ever a time to live large it's now. Not tomorrow, not once i start collage but now! It's sometimes hard for me to think about the now, I find myself often looking forward to things in the future so much that I can't enjoy the right now. Honestly how stupid is that? why on earth would i wish away my time just because something better might lay ahead? So my goal right now is to enjoy every moment... I'm not saying i'm never gonna wish some things were over. And I'm always going to be happy when work is over and I can go have fun. But that shouldn't stop me from making the best of every single second. I want to live bigger and be braver! I can't think of a whole lot of daring things for me to do while I'm on this living it up high... and I'm not going to leave behind my judgment or values. But I REALLY want to just live and be and love myself and have no regrets about stupid things. I want to dare to do the things I love and the things that scare me! Because you might regret the things you do, but your always going to regret the things you wern't brave enough to try.

Monday, July 11, 2011

ok so i got a tumblr... not to diss on blogger because i gave my soul to blogger, just to expand my horizons.. no worries your always my number one. Any ways if you wanna follow me on it here is the link...

my first fashion post!

i've been way big on the nautical inspired fashion lately! SAILORS! I bought a navy school uniform skirt at the D.I and it is so sailor looking i love it! then I got an anchore necklace at forever 21 that looks kinda like this
which all goes splendily with my vintage scarf that looks sorta like this
and add a few navy shirts, a pair of white sandals and maybe a red sweater and you've got the style! sorry i just wanted to post something new for a change... so fashion it is p.s. i wish! i had that navy dress from the first picture THE number 2 one! I LOVE IT!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

A painting of you

Ok so while Erin and I were walking slowly through the muse d'orsay we found this picture that we thought has a striking resemblance to her, Not all of it just the face mostly but It really kinda does look like miss Erin Ann! ha ha how often do you find a painting of you done in 1864?
well it's official Erin must be a decedent of madam Rimsky Korsakov