19

so it's almost my birthday...
7 days to be exact.
It's kind of sad turning 19 i feel old and forced to be grown up.
But since graduating and making my own choices I've started to realize just how good it is to be young. I still have so much ahead of me, why am I feeling like I'm half way int the grave? I'm not fifty! sometimes I like to make lists about things I want to do, like the 12 things I want to do in 12th grade. But I'm learning that life isn't always what you think it should be. Sometimes it's worse and a lot of times it's much better. If EVERYTHING I had on my lists had happened I would be wishing it had. I can't control some things and that's ok. But I'm at a point in my life that I can't afford not to be actively becoming who I want to be. SOOO... I am going to make some goals that I can control. I don't think I will post up all my goals just because I don't want to, but I will put them on my wall! 19 here I come!!!