2010 The good, the bad ,the ugly and the happy

wow this has been quiet the year.
it's brought a lot of good
and a Lot of bad.

I meet Mia for the first time
I have prayed harder than i ever have
my prayers have been answered
I had a fully heart
I had a sad and angry heart
I had a overjoyed heart
I learned how it feels to have a broken heart
I learned i am stronger than i thought
I learned i can do anything
I learned how amazing my parents really are
I learned how much heavenly father loves me and my family
I have seen true and real miracles
I have seen true tragedy,sorrow and pain
I have made wishes
I have grown
I have cried
I have laughed
I understand more
sometimes I wish I didn't
I have been annoyed
I switched bedrooms
I went to too many funerals
I fell in love with art
I became a senior
I became gluten free
I got my first pair of skinny jeans
I became the oldest child at home
I became happier
I was with my whole family for the first time
I learned what a difference i can make
I grew up a lot
I have made friends
I have changed my mind
I have conquered challenges
and i am ready for 2011!

so out with the old in with the new
I won't say i loved 2010 but i love who I have become because of 2010!

starry starry night

the whole glowing orb of luna shown
moonlight falling like the soft and unspoken
the gaudy stars as bright as my soul felt
the wind's curly locks gave way threw the hills
to kiss and cradle the stars
in soft hugs of air
and yet it stood thrusting upward in the dark in the night
to tarnish my angelic view of the light
and laying in my bed
observing the heavenly splendor
i beheld the dark shadow of a tree take a breath
a deep sighing breath and yearn for the stars, for the above
the wind was free to fly but trees have roots
and try as they might can't stretch up
kissing and cradling the kingdom of the sky
what would the tree give for such liberties
surly every leaf it held
and naively the wind gust upwards
not knowing what it had was to be envied so
each viewing the other with glory and significance
perhaps the stars and moon the most nieve of all
and i beheld them all
eyes open wide, all tucked into my bed

the thirll and the chill is enough

there is something perhaps eerily strange about snow

when it's falling all seems deathly silentnot a sound in the world is to be heardand so your ears yearn to hear what isn't therebut what isn't heard is make up for in what is seenthe glistening celestial specks drifting earthbound bitterly gracing my skin with there tiny kisses

only to melt away into the forgotten
the life of a snowflake is short
one snowflake doesn't get much glory
one snowflake isn't significant
but what a life one snowflake must live
skydiving to our world
and that thrill that chill is enough

christmas time

the three musketeers!

monet

oh i just can't even explaine how much i love this painting right now, i garentee a poem will be on here shortly about it. it just makes my heart sigh.

thanksgiving

so yes thanksgiving is over, the turkey is in a leftover container in the fridge waiting to be made into Mondays sandwich but i never got the change to be thankful on my blog. thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays, many times it seems like we are so selfish in our daily lives. not like we mean to be, i think most of the time it's far to easy to think about us and what we want. I'm guilty as charged. so i love taking a holiday to think about all the things i have, all the things that i have been so blessed with. the little things that make my life so amazing. it's always good to take a moment and count you blessings. i am thankful for sooo many things i could never list them all. but i will try and list some of the things that i am really grateful for, and no they aren't in order.

I'm thankful for my family- it's big, it's loud, we go crazy often, sometimes i have to hide. but they love me so much and do so much for me. i can't even imagine life without my big loud loving family they does so much for me. i'm so grateful for my little sisters, taci, brooke and mia. we fight. we tease and we are best friends. i'm so grateful to have a thanksgiving with all my sisters this is the first one.
my big brothers are so great. they are such good examples to me and i love them so much. i miss living in the same house as them but i love them and look up to them in so many ways. i'm grateful to jordy for serving a mission and i love him! i'm happy to see tay often and love him! man my mom and dad do so much i couldn't list it all if i tried. i'm grateful for them for helping and loving me and our whole family, they give up so much for us and i love them like crazy. i'm grateful for my grandparents, aunts , uncles, and cousins that make life so happy( and loud) your the best!
i'm thankful to have a warm house to live in, that I'm warm from the snow and cold. I'm thankful for the adorable room i have and my cutiest little roommate ( mia). I'm thankful that i live here where i never have to be cold or hungry. that i can go to school and learn and make something out of my life. i'm thankful to be a member of my church that i have such a support system and for the knowledge that i am a daughter of my heavenly father who loves me! i'm thankful to always have enough to eat. that i am healthy and can live my life! I'm thankful for all the things i have that people in Haiti don't have. I'm thankful for the many many things i have and that i have opportunities to share what i have with others who don't have as much. like my dearest aunt barbie would say " i am so blessed!"

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